Are We There Yet?

Life goes on...... I thought I have found the one but I must have imagined it.

So I moved on with my life and I promised myself that I will never fall again..... As usual, a fun loving and hard working girl who tries her best to help everyone around her, i buried myself in my work and other extra curricular activities...planned a friend's wedding, organisied reunion, went out when I could. Met someone else but still found out that wasn't what I wanted....just didn't live up to standard and as I promised myself, I will not compromise on anything! You even find out some just want to take and never give.lay off those ones.

I felt I wasn't getting what I wanted or maybe it was just the fact that I had people who justed me to go for what I didn't want. I decided to go away and hope deep down in my mind that something will happen that will change things. I just wanted a break and a get away from everything, I even considered change of work to a different location other than London.

As I was planning my holiday, I had a text from Knight after which we had a conversation and I promised to see him in a few days even though I didn't mean to. I didn't go and he was upset that I didn't turn up but I promised to stop at his on my way from work forgetting that he said he was travelling a couple of days before me to the states. I stopped by as promised but he had already left for the states. Only took me walking back to the station to remember this.

On this holiday, I wasn't having a good time as my friend I stayed with just wasn't the same person I was with the year before.......I put it down to a lot of factors; could it be because she is married and I am not? Does she see me as a threat because I am slim and she is a lot bigger suddenly? I didn't like the state I saw her in, she was living in a condition that is not expected of the friend I know. I wondered all through my time at her place but I kept my distance and would just lie in bed in the room I was staying and go for a walk or just go window shopping/shopping. As all these were going on, I decided to check my email and there it was; an email from Knight.

I had sent an email to Knight mentioning how I was at his but he was gone and I only realised he traveled on the day I was there. His email mentioned how I snooped around his place (story for another day).